from the brink of failure

So it finally happened, the long-unawaited el2101 paper.

When i first looked at the questions, i seriously thought that that was it, gonna fail already...

Even as i was flipping through the paper looking for any question that was remotely attemptable, i was going through in my mind what might happen if i flunked this module - six modules, more suffering with el modules, disastrous cap plunge...

But even in doing so, i had this strange calm in my heart that i know can only come from God. Then, i just put everything down, closed my eyes, and prayed.

Not a prayer of desperation or last resort, but simply a prayer to surrender the paper to the Lord.

Slowly but surely the thoughts started to flow, and the once desperately unmarked paper began to fill up with answers.

Now, i am not saying that the paper became a piece of cake, cos even at this point in time i have absolutely no idea how the grade will turn out.

But i do believe that, with God-granted discipline, effort was put into this module throughout the sem, in spite of how much i abhorred it and how discouraging my results for the tests were, and that with some degree of correlation, the Lord saw me through the paper today.

Also can't forget the prayers of various people whom i have previously poured out all my gripes and grieviances regarding this module to. Thanks =)

This morning as i woke up, this chorus was ringing through my head.

Forever God is faithful,
Forever God is strong,
Forever God is with us,
Forever.

How apt, perhaps the context in which i am reminded of this song is a tad anti-climactical compared to the countless wonderful instances of His faithfulness displayed in our lives, but nonetheless, His faithfulness amazes me.